This year was full of many learning experiences and it started with the most difficult one-death! I had never lost someone very close to me and had never attended a funeral. But, in January I did. Dealing with death isn’t easy but is an essential truth of life. It came 20 years after I was born, but I am glad I have made peace with this truth of life now.
This year marks the ultimate transformation from being a college lad to a working girl. I had my last college trip in Feb to Sikkim, in March we got farewell and by April, done, college life was done! As I write this now in December, I am already working as a content writer for a start-up. This entire phase from June till now was like walking on a patch of hot coal with a smile on.
Why did I miss talking about May above? Because I had the perfect end to my college life as I travelled the entire month. First, I went to Manali, I did my first snow trek and then I came back and visited Ladakh. This entire month of travelling was the perfect way of calming the head down and celebrating the joy of being a graduate before entering the new phase of life.
I think the travel part of May intoxicated me that I couldn’t think of anything but travel. June and July went away in many beautiful treks with my favourite thing-rains! I can relive dancing ‘london thumakda’ in the rain to release some happy hormones on a crappy day.
August bought with it another new experience, my mother’s retirement. 37years of commitment to one job, can you believe that? Now life got serious, I had to quickly shift from my travel mania to finding a new job. And as I did that, I had to consider how to smoothen the shift for mom from being a working lady to being a retired one. The following months were definitely rough but I sailed through only to crash on a big mountain soon.
Crashing onto this mountain could easily be avoided. It is stupid. I still find it weird as to why I did it, but with lot of courage, I finally pen down my stupidity. I liked a guy, had this huge crush on him, and how normally one deals with crushes, I kept to myself. But a new friend insisted on saying it, expressing it and so I did, but not just like that, with a poem!
I penned a poem of my feelings and guess what, received a poem in return. But before you get it wrong, let me tell you the poem received said exactly what I did, my crush loved someone else. That poem is a priced possession now as my crush’s a lazy fellow and not a writer kind for sure.
As I made peace with my emotional stupidity, life got better otherwise. I kind of felt better at my new job. Mom also began living her retired life with ease. Just when I thought everything is getting better I got questioned WHY?
The context of this why being, why I am doing the job, why I am thinking of the masters that I am. I did figure out part answer to this why but hopefully get the full picture soon.
This is the last post of the year. I am travelling to Ranthambore, Rajasthan, India the following week. I hope to find proper answer to my WHY, will definitely come back to post my answer and of course the travel experience. PS: check my instagram @nishanavgire for photos related to my blogs!