I had a vague memory of the place from a month ago when I had been there. I tried to find the shared cab I took last time with my colleague but couldn’t. The bus wasn’t available either. A metered cab finally agreed to come. I realized the driver was taking me on wrong directions and I stepped out.
I walked for ten minutes to realize Google was wrong too. This is exactly why the fear of directions and everything related to geography dwells in me so strongly. I panicked. I was in the middle of the city, unable to find a place. I was about to break down, then a voice in me told me to keep trying.
In the theatre last night, I watched the life of a rapper played by Ranveer. He is shown to face much crisis. Each time he is down, a voice in him tells him to keep trying.
I and this rapper both choose to pen our feelings out, he with his raps, I with my blog and insta poems. A small thing like finding direction or as big as dealing a family crisis, the voice in both of us tells us to not give up, to keep trying.
‘ye shabdon ka jwala meri bedhiya pighlayega’ is one of the lines from his rap. This line sums up the movie for me and also my life at the moment. Each time I am low, my inner voice, my words help me come out of it.
What is this voice? What is this that I hear? What is it that this rapper heard? Who is inside us speaking to us this way? Motivating us? Being a little sunshine of hope when we are drenched in reality? The movie raised these questions and my quest began…
When I was in the middle of the road, completely lost, I was scared but I didn’t shed a tear. Reassured by the voice in me I tried and found another cab, reached the place, found the gully, walked through it holding hands with fear and confidence together. Ten minutes late but I did reach my destination, did my work well and left with a smile.
This is the quickest I have shifted from about to break down to being productive. I realized the voice in me is strong and positive. This voice in me reminded me how dreamlike my life is at the moment and that I shouldn’t let anything ruin it.
Now, what is this voice? How did it make me so productive? How did it manage to make the rapper in the movie also so successful? The answer was purely what we tell ourselves, what we accept as reality and wish to work on…
I accepted a while ago that my geography sucks and promised myself to work on it. In the time of crisis, the voice in me reminded me of it. This similar acceptance of reality and promise to get over it helped the rapper grow towards his dream too.
That’s how simple our brain functions. This post is to remind you of this simple functioning. Accept the problem and promise to work towards it in your head. This will de-clutter your mind from all negative thoughts and a voice in you will tell you too, to keep trying!
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