This week has been a roller coaster. The epitome of low that it began at from last Monday to the happy high it has come to this Monday.
I was at my lowest last Monday. Everything was falling apart. I was shattered completely. I couldn’t hold myself well together. I won’t write here every single detail of my low points but I’ll skim through my journey of the week from lowest low to happy high.
So, last Monday, I left home with a feeling I’ll break down. That’s how my home is, I do come out of the home with this feeling often. But, I managed to fake a smile and stretched my day at work.
When I was trying to hold on, something at work also rattled and I broke down. I couldn’t handle everything at once. I tried to but couldn’t. I was supposed to be at a Nature Concert but wasn’t in mind space for it.
I went for it anyways. I was crying through the entire way while a kind friend and his girlfriend watched me weep calmly. If it wasn’t their kind efforts I would go home crying, but I found and reached the Nature Concert thanks to them.
Wilson College Nature Club (WCNC) is into its 40th year. This Nature Concert was a celebration of the same. I was very glad that I went as WCNC warmth helped me heal. The mere presence of these people calmed me. Each person I greeted, hugged, had a conversation with made me relaxed, feel better, tell myself, this too shall pass.
I couldn’t stay till the end but whatever little I was there, I felt as if my wound was bandaged. Usually, WCNC trips have done so to me, but it is not a club, WCNC is a feeling. Its this feeling, this vibe that the people generate which healed me magically!
Tuesday to Saturday I worked. It wasn’t smooth either. I made many mistakes and it was a week I had totally imagined it to be considering the mind space I was in. But, the weekend changed it all.
On Saturday, I had a very enriching session at work. I had an equally enriching day finding the right book for a colleague. Later, I ordered my new phone. I was left alone for a day at home and all the emotional burden got released. I ate, slept and celebrated the entry of my new phone in life.
When I went to work on Monday, I received my business card. It had my name on it. I held my first ever business card in hand, my eyes swelled. It was a Monday again but this time my tears had a different meaning.
From one Monday to another, the week’s pace was different. I rose above many speed breakers and came out shining. The point of sharing this roller coaster ride is that the change I saw in a week might not be the case for all.
You are perhaps facing a crisis for years, months or longer. But remember, it too shall pass. Be strong, weep it all out for once, that’s okay. Get it all out of your system and then the healing will begin.
I wish this post gave you hope to keep going with whatever you are dealing with…
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