I have had rough weeks, reason why I have to add two posts this week as I missed one last week. I began thinking about what to do when it occurred to me that let’s pen down all the challenges I am dealing with now. The ways these challenges are shaping me and be a good motivator to keep going.
5 Un-nurtured travel seed
It is one thing to say realize you have a travelling seed in you and its completely another to keep feeding it. Let’s face it, being on mountains every weekend is the dream but making it once a month also is like achieving a feat!
This rotten, un-nurtured seed then affects the entire mental land. It gets crazy up there and even the easiest daily tasks suffer. I am not too sure how I am dealing with this, but I am doing okay. Trying to go on drives, get up early and be on the terrace, go on random walks etc.
4 Balance
Personal life is gone for a toss amidst the professional roller coaster I am riding. Striking this balance is getting tougher by the day. I have a course that I am to study for. I have a work commitment to live up to. Ah! Penning this also makes my stress level reach Everest in a second!
No there is no way I know how to deal with this. Let’s say I am trying my best to sail through this one. This one is only a phase and hopefully, this challenge will cease to exist in a matter of a month! Well, one can be hopeful.
3 Generation gap
Okay, let’s say no one’s a clean sheet. We all have our flaws. I have shared and been close to mom ever since my memory can recall things. But now, things are getting difficult as I am in my tweens and mom is getting old. There are things which I can’t share, things she can’t try to understand. It is tough. I keep feeling I am losing the only parent I ever had!
But, well communication is the cure for everything. I am dealing with the best way than the rest of my challenges. I conveyed to mom all the above and she said I need not tell her things her age can’t handle only at the clause that even she is allowed to keep secrets that my age can’t handle. And well, I think I got the best of the deal as she sucks with secrets!
2 Oops, not again!
My mother’s better half is the next challenge I deal with. I can’t say more here, I think I am doing okay with this one. We don’t bother each other much. We were like two animals fighting for the independent share of the same land and living. We have come to a co-existing policy where no one bothers the other person’s small den.
Not saying I nailed this one, but I am only human and trying my best dealing with this one. In case this point was a bouncer for you then get some context here.
1 Away from her
It is tough to admit this one but well, I miss my sister. She settled abroad two years back. It was fine at first as I had just graduated and I had a few things planned. But now that life is slapping me left and right, I sort of miss her support and guiding hand beside me.
Yes, perhaps I wouldn’t even take a single of her advice but then I have always loved hearing her thoughts and then denying them. There wasn’t much of a bond but I miss the little be had. It is crazy but my journal helped me understand that a lot of me not writing last week’s post was because my mental space was full of me missing her!
No, I haven’t called her. I haven’t conveyed this to her. I know it isn’t a good idea either. I know I won’t say this to her. I am not sure how I’ll deal with one at all. I feel weirdly helpless and adamant with this regard. Time, I leave this one to you.
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