What on earth is happening? Will, I seriously not be able to travel anytime soon? No way, I am not prepared for this sudden change. Like one day I was planning for a trip to the Himalayas and the next I am expected to cancel every single thing to do outside and only be home? What the hell! This has to be a big bad dream.
Process
To deal with a tough situation, I have been outdoors and de-cluttered my mind looking at the clouds, embracing a mountain or so on. Never have I come back from a trip/trek with a messy mind. I have always come back home peacefully if not entirely happy.
Each human has different ways of dealing with life situations. People prefer to talk, some prefer music, and some like me prefer writing and travelling. Now, to me, it feels like taking away a part of my backbone and asking me to survive. How?
Few weeks have gone and I tried to write myself through it. You can read the ‘be home saga’ to know how I tried to keep my spirits up. But, as the days are increasing and the chances of the situations to improve decreasing, my panic levels are reaching the moon and back.
I took to art to calm down. It didn’t completely help me as my mind didn’t process the reality. Art proved to be a Band-Aid to my mind. I felt good, but this not able to travel wound hadn’t healed. Nature has its way of calming me, and it did so yet again.
I decided and saw sunrise and sunset every day. I managed to do so for four days at a stretch this week. I saw the sunrise from my building terrace while I saw the sunset from my balcony. Watching the big gas ball rise and set, my mind finally understood that this situation will set too. No amount of me panicking will stop the rising situation.
To accept this harsh reality completely in the mind is step one. Above is my mind’s flow of accepting this pandemic craze. If you are an overthinker like me, please process this step one for yourself too, talk to yourself and understand if you have truly accepted the largeness of this situation.
Proceed
Once that is done, I went on to invest more in the passions I have. I begin to give more time to writing. I begin to read more and understand better about the places I have been to. Tried my best to gain knowledge online and from people, on the places, I have been to. Starting to do these, my mind felt better.
I took time, but now I am able to focus more on the things that need to be done rather than cribbing of the things I can’t do now. I had approached White Elephant Digital last month to revamp my blog. I finally spent the time to buy a domain and now I am working on helping them with the designing of the blog.
I have always wished for the blog to get better and finally spending time on doing it feels beautiful. My target is to get this whole blog revamped before my birthday next month. I am working full force on making that happen, with the help of White Elephant Digital of course!
Plan
One thing that I have picked up from one year at working at an NGO is the importance of planning. I know this whole situation is about easing out and chilling, but I believe it is the best time to plan. Plan what?
If you genuinely followed the first two steps above, you should be thinking about this passion you have for something and spending time doing it. Even if you aren’t a passionate person, it doesn’t hurt to add up some skills on your sleeves
Just go to udemy.com or Coursera and you’ll find so many newer opportunities to brush up many skills you haven’t been able to give time for before. Udemy especially has varied categories of courses and many are certified too!
It took me a while to reach this state of mind where I am no more thinking that the world is ending. I am looking at this phase as a growing and nurturing one and telling myself each day that life has given me the best gift it could – time!
I would urge everyone reading this to also try and process this situation positively, proceed with making some plans of self-growth. Let’s use this surprise gift by life efficiently.
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